Miraculous Madness

Araella texted me late on the evening of January 15th:

"God is asking me to do hard things… I will call you tomorrow."

I have learned patience over the past 5 months.  At one point I told Rae that I would not push her with questions anymore because I trusted the communication that was happening between Rae and God. I trusted it more than any thing else actually. Oh, it wasn't easy at first… to give up that control… but soon I realized that surrender brought more peace and confidence than anything I could have mustered up as a human depending on other humans…  And so, once again, I closed my eyes not knowing what God was asking her to do next.  

On Monday morning after her classes, she called:

Why is it harder to listen to God about something small like lacrosse than it was to listen to him about cancer? 

I'm supposed to study and become a nurse.  I'm supposed to play my violin in The Upper Room... I am not supposed to play lacrosse - even though I want to.  Even though it is everything I wanted… I am sorry that I made you send my lacrosse stuff."

Through happy tears, "That's ok Rae.  That's ok." 

"The Upper Room was awesome. Look up 'Here Now' by Hillsong."

And just like that she was off to study…  Leaving me with a song and with lyrics and more miraculous madness <3

It makes no sense but this is grace

And I know you're with me in this place

Faith makes a fool

of what makes sense

Madness

Still my heart

Let Your voice be all I hear now

Spirit breath 

Let the wind come, have Your way